Billie Lourd Remembers Carrie Fisher In Emotional Birthday Tribute: “My Mom Died When She Was 60. 60 Is Too Damn Young To Die”

Billie Lourd shared an emotional message on what would’ve been Carrie Fisher‘s birthday.

The Scream Queens actor paid tribute to her late mother sharing her process of grief.

“My mom would’ve been 68 today. Dead person birthdays are weird to say the least,” Lourd shared on Instagram. “On my mom’s birthday every year, I try to celebrate her as much as possible, but today I really wanted to celebrate her with her. Some years my grief makes me feel the warmth of her love, some years it makes me angry, some years I feel numb but today when I woke up I just felt sad. I didn’t want to celebrate, I just wanted my mom.”

Lourd, who appeared with her mom on 2017’s Star Wars: The Last Jedi, said her sadness “body-snatched” her, and she took to Google to search for an “average death-age woman.” The actress said that the results yielded that the average age a woman dies is 80.2.

“My mom died when she was 60,” she added. “60 is too damn young to die.”

She continued, “I then googled drug overdose deaths (another fun morning google!!!) and it is over 100 thousand people per year.”

Lourd opened up about helping her mother “get sober but sadly my mom couldn’t ever escape her addiction. But while she was alive she always shared the ups and downs of that struggle with others in hopes it would help them escape their own addiction.”

“As an addict, being open about the struggle is the only way through. And same goes for those of us affected by that struggle,” Lourd said. “Sending my love to anyone out there who has lost someone to drug addiction. You are not alone.”