Drew Barrymore still feels ‘so much shame’ about history of being a ‘blackout drinker’

Drew Barrymore is still grappling with her sobriety journey despite giving up alcohol more than five years ago.

The “Charlie’s Angels” star sat down with Zoë Kravitz during Tuesday’s episode of her eponymous talk show to discuss the latter’s directorial debut in “Blink Twice,” which Barrymore admitted “really affected” her “personally.”

“There’s a lot about substances in the film,” Barrymore said of the thriller, which came out in theaters last month.

Barrymore, who also previously battled addiction as a child, was “shocked to realize” all the “trauma” she was still dealing with as “a [former] blackout drinker.”

Drew Barrymore got candid about her past struggles with alcohol on “The Drew Barrymore Show” Tuesday. The Drew Barrymore Show/Ash Beanâ¯â¯ Barrymore sat down with Zoë Kravitz to discuss her new film, “Blink Twice.” The Drew Barrymore Show/Ash Beanâ¯â¯

“And so watching this film was an extraordinary journey for me to forgive myself for that,” she explained while holding back tears. “Because I’ve put myself in situations I shouldn’t have put myself in.”

“And I felt so much shame about that,” she continued. “And I haven’t had a drink in five years.”

The “E.T.” star, 49, noted that the thriller “is not only a film about the things that can happen to us” but also a depiction of “the things we’ve done to ourselves.”

There is “a lot about substances” in the psychological thriller, which Kravitz co-wrote and directed. The Drew Barrymore Show/Ash Beanâ¯â¯ Barrymore said the movie made her reflect on her past as “a blackout drinker.” The Drew Barrymore Show/CBS

The movie was so eye-opening for Barrymore that she plans on getting a snake tattoo, a theme of the film, to remind herself how far she has come in her sobriety.

Although the movie delves into several themes, Barrymore asked Kravitz if she “was aware” of how impactful it may be for sober viewers.

“Yes, absolutely,” the “Batman” actress, 35, replied. “The substances were, I think, more of a way to get the characters to the most vulnerable place possible. When you let yourself go and you lose yourself it’s so easy for things to spiral out of control.”

Kravitz continued, “To your point as well, when we allow ourselves to be in those kind of situations there is so much shame when we get to the other side. So we make mistakes, we hurt ourselves, we get hurt by others and then oftentimes we are left to deal with the consequences on our own.”

“Watching this film was an extraordinary journey for me to forgive myself for that,” Barrymore candidly revealed. Getty Images The talk show host has been sober for over five years. Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images

Although the “Big Little Lies” star noted that people often blame themselves for their shortcomings, she wanted to show that it’s actually “so much more complicated than that.”

While Kravitz did not star in the film, she directed and co-wrote the project alongside E.T. Feigenbaum.

She also met now-fiancé Channing Tatum, who plays a villainous tech billionaire, while working on the movie.

Kravitz wanted the film to highlight the “complicated” relationships between substances and shame. Marsland/WireImage “Blink Twice” came out last month. Dave Benett/WireImage

Elsewhere in Tuesday’s interview, Barrymore gushed over the actor’s performance in “Blink Twice,” which was a major diversion from his typical nice guy roles.

“In my opinion, there needs to be a big Academy Awards campaign push for his performance,” Barrymore said of Tatum. “Because it is one of the greats.”

“It’s one of the finest performances I’ve ever seen,” she raved. “And he also goes to places that are very risky… he was willing to go to places that I think any actor would be terrified to go to.”

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